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Lost soul by PerkonOzols Lost soul :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 0 1 Chinux by PerkonOzols Chinux :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 0 0 Tribesman by PerkonOzols Tribesman :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 0 0 Sacrifice by PerkonOzols Sacrifice :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 1 0 Antichrist by PerkonOzols Antichrist :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 1 0 Girl by PerkonOzols Girl :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 0 0 Azrael by PerkonOzols Azrael :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 7 0 Despair by PerkonOzols Despair :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 4 5 Urruruu by PerkonOzols Urruruu :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 8 0 Is-ness by PerkonOzols Is-ness :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 0 0 Twin-tooth Fusion by PerkonOzols Twin-tooth Fusion :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 2 0 Human condition by PerkonOzols Human condition :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 1 0 Transmutation by PerkonOzols Transmutation :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 1 0 Pain body by PerkonOzols Pain body :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 0 0 Birth cycle of the Form by PerkonOzols Birth cycle of the Form :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 1 0 Burning the EGO by PerkonOzols Burning the EGO :iconperkonozols:PerkonOzols 2 0


Vermin by Fulualea Vermin :iconfulualea:Fulualea 256 16 Sergal by Fulualea Sergal :iconfulualea:Fulualea 539 34 Agata, the Everlasting Witch by Palasferas Agata, the Everlasting Witch :iconpalasferas:Palasferas 23 22 1. Magician by Palasferas
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1. Magician :iconpalasferas:Palasferas 16 19
From the depths... by Palasferas From the depths... :iconpalasferas:Palasferas 15 16 C: Iris by SilverChaim C: Iris :iconsilverchaim:SilverChaim 507 103 Marina the Mermaid by Lighane Marina the Mermaid :iconlighane:Lighane 1,690 147 Elf three by Luemine Elf three :iconluemine:Luemine 51 5 Light Elf by DianaKeehl Light Elf :icondianakeehl:DianaKeehl 27 4 Owl Planet by TianaMaros Owl Planet :icontianamaros:TianaMaros 62 9 Prism Eyes by yuumei Prism Eyes :iconyuumei:yuumei 16,181 379 Feel and Conquer by yuumei Feel and Conquer :iconyuumei:yuumei 28,899 1,144 In Your Memeory by yuumei In Your Memeory :iconyuumei:yuumei 17,234 616 At The Crossroads by yuumei At The Crossroads :iconyuumei:yuumei 17,761 481
I'm Sorry
I finally realized that my traumatic past has been catching up to me. My unresolved fears and pain of abandonment as a child by my parents has seeped into my adult life. It triggers extreme reactions in me that drives people close to me away.
I like to pretend to be strong. That whatever comes at me in life, I'll just pull myself up again and get over it. I'd like to believe that what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. I'd like to pretend that if I somehow draw out pain, and put it on canvas, that the pain will be contained on canvas, and not deep inside me. But that's not true.
When I'm knocked down and broken, and left to pick up the pieces of myself, I lose a bit more of myself each time. Not everything can be glued back together again. And never stronger than before. I can't trust again. I'm afraid of people. I'm afraid of being close to anyone.
It's hard to get up each morning. I feel hopeless and helpless. It doesn't matter that everyone tells me otherwise. I don't feel that
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Colors pencil drawing by chaseroflight Colors pencil drawing :iconchaseroflight:chaseroflight 54 6



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Palasferas Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday! Haven't seen you for a while here, but I hope you're having a wonderful day. :)
PerkonOzols Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
aww thank you! :3
Palasferas Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
You're most welcome! :hug:
PerkonOzols Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
How is life? Still walking the path of the devils? :D
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Martith Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hello and welcome to

We are happy to have you in our group!
We also hope you'll keep sharing your art with us! :love:

And be sure to take a look at our contest! :la:
Blue-Anima Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2016   General Artist
Thank you for the watch! I hope you enjoy my journey. :hug: 
Fulualea Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2016  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thank you for favs and watch, I appreciate С:
PerkonOzols Featured By Owner Feb 13, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
no problem :) 
Sventine Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for the watch :happybounce:
PerkonOzols Featured By Owner Feb 1, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I just like what i see and your art is very captivating ^^ 
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